Cured By The Enemies…

I know… You are reading the title and feeling disappointment… After all, nobody likes a doctor who gets emotional, but believe me if we didn’t, you would like us even less.

Cured By The Enemies…

By Erinda Kosturi

I know… You are reading the title and feeling disappointment… After all, nobody likes a doctor who gets emotional, but believe me if we didn’t, you would like us even less.

This is my second article, having dedicated my first one, to the impact of technology on our understanding and management of health conditions, but not long after it got published, I felt I had left something behind. Not even the time to think it twice… there it is, gone viral the video of the ER doctor, being pushed around and punched… It hurts to see one of us like that, hurts even more when everybody blames that doctor, being abused physically and mentally while on duty, because of a poorly equipped hospital.

I should have started this from here… I AM NOT THE ENEMY!

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At this point, there is no energy left to articulate how we feel, and reaction on social media seems futile.

I am not going to ask you to see me on a different light, but I will be “your friend” for the next few minutes you’ll spare with me so you will get a better understanding of the “enemy curing you”.

Medicine is not a profession, it’s a religion. You don’t stop and ask yourself why you chose to do this. You know this is all you can, want and should do. You know the answers are there, and you know when to stop asking them…

It takes something personal to became a doctor, something beyond science, something that touches you personally… it always comes down, to just ONE specific person, you wished had lived, you wished could have been saved, that situation you wished you could have seen coming…

It takes just a loved one, to make you understand you want to spend your best years helping others get better.

And we are not even talking about a few years… Nope! It’s all our 20s and most of our 30s we spend studying and working hard, and then the next years ahead disappointing your family while standing by strangers.

Personally I missed my brother’s wedding, because I had an exam, I missed my best friend’s birthdays, because I had a research paper to submit or a conference out of town, my relative’s parties because a patient was sick, my high school friend’s funeral and so many more…

At a certain point of your life, all the milestones of your carrier are no more than reminders of the failures of your private life.

You can mostly date doctors, ‘cause other people – and sincerely sometimes even doctors – can’t understand what it means, missing a date because a patient needs you, or not wanting to go out because one of your patients got back his/her results and came out he/she has cancer and you are so drained you cannot celebrate anything. We can forget about future plans; we know less about our future than most of you out there… How could we, if we cannot even make it on time, to see the man we have been waiting for so long to invite us out, to take care of our loved ones, to plan to have a baby and manage a carrier, to make it to our neighbor’s party…

You see?
I am not the enemy!

I have spent the best days of my life near the bed of someone I do not know, holding his or her hand, giving hope, giving everything I have, leaving behind my own family and friends who might also need me, because YOU need me. I have celebrated with you the disease you fought and crying on my way home for every loss I had…

I know, for every story I shared with you, most of you will throw a terrible experience you had with a doctor at some point… And I feel for everyone out there that dealt with these situations.

On the other hand, we know that a falling tree makes more noise than a growing forest. Everyday is filled with the best of us struggling to make everyone sick out there, feel better soon!

Sometimes we win, sometimes we lose… this is out of our control, but not even the worst of us, do harm intentionally…

We are not your enemies, we pay the price of a disastrous health care system, which is deliberately lying to you…

Be our partners in the fight for your health!!!

 

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